Monday, May 17, 2010
   Goodnight Readers , basically right now , i'm updating my facebook . Haish . I have been crying since just now . I just cant take it anymore , ifeel like killing myself . But i just cant because it will be more worse . Mummy , Daddy , Sister really having a great fight . i just has to bare the shouting inside the house.i just cant belived that Mummy will be sayingthat to my sister after the hard work she had done for our family . Haish )): i just cant believe that you will be saying that to my sister rather then supporting her desicions . Haish . Just to be frank , i love my sister more rather than my mother , i treasure my sister more rather than my mother . I just dont know why . My elder sister will always find a way to make me happy and the things that i always craving for , but mummy will just ignore and will not fullfill my all my wishes . How sad )): . The love that sister gave to me is like a love from a mother towards her daughter . But yet she is only my elder sister . My elder sisiter cried cause no one 2 stand by her side to support all her esicios that she is making right now towrds our family . Haish . Sometimes i just dont wished to have a family like this , Rather beinmyself and be independent , i guess ? Haha . i'm still a kid laa wey . How to survive if dont have money ? Tell me ? Haish . Whatever happens if they have problems at home , they will always throw their angerness towards me & i'm the one who to be blame . Which i dont know a single thing . Why must life be so difficult until like this ? WHY ! WHY ! WHY . i just dont understand why must god give this test to the person who always weak . Why isitmust be this way . I felt lonely right now . I just need a warm hug from babyg . How i wished he will be comfortting me . But sometimesmeeting him is a big regret . Like just now , i saw on a piece of paper he wrote this " will i be able to make her happy ?" Haish . All this making me headache . I jsut dont wished to tell you how hurt i am but i just have to bare with it all alone )): Sometimes , friends do understands me but sometimes they just dont be bother how i feel . I'm just tired of crying . Who i will always be pampered with is my cousins and aunties . who will always be there for me when i need them , but my family ? They dont even bother to ask me how i am . grrrrh ~ enough of elaborating about this . The more i say , the more hurt i am . Whatever happens i must just be strong . ~~ i have gotten back my scripts , it's rather upsetting cause my results all in red ink .I did past my maths but english and social studies i failed badly . Who to blame if i failed ? Teachers ? NO blame yourself cause its the matter of yourself if you want to study or not . haish . sometimes i feel like giving up in my studies but i just cant beacuse without education there will be no future for me . but what to do i just must bare with it listening to that naggy teachers nags atus each and everyday . I'm sick and tired of her like seriously . After school went to meet my babygirls outside bukit view secondary . I miss yuyujinn , nafisah , yatz , kuxy & more . I got a thight hug from them , you know . Dont be jelaous :D . Hehe . Just joking . Went to slack with them , Soon times flys fast ,the rest of the bukit viewans need to get back home earlier then us . Then left the three of us , kuxy baby , yuyujinnn baby , deannababy and naughtyboyy . Gossipping around with them . Had a really fun time with them ((: , meet soon love ^^ . ~~ baby all i ever wanted right now is a kiss & a thight hug from you , cause i just cant bare being alone . I just need you cause i need a shoulder to cry on dearest boyfriends . Haish )): ~~ And to those people who cant stop making rumours about me you jolly well stop it cause i just had enough and tired of it . goodnight readers , assalamualaikum |
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