I'm feeling bored right now and at the same time i feel sad . No one here to cheer me up :'( . Haish . Currently baby is having soccer now , he wont be meeting me today though it was anniversarry cause he is concetrating on the soccer match he is having now . Goodluck dear (: . I wished you the best baby . Basically today is the 26th , i didn't get to meet baby for our fourmonthsarry :'( . But yet i still understand yur
suitation cause you effing  busy with soccer so that you are qualified to final . And i'm proud of it . Eventhough sometimes you ngelect me but  i dont feel differentcause i know that you want to be a good soccer player in upcoming years . So i cant stopped you from that . Baby sometimes you says things that hurts my feelings but i just ignored . At the other side i'm the one who tries my best to be with you and spend time with you together . But yet you put the blame on me . Haish , why isit must be this way ? I hate it :'( . I feel down . But its alirght , i accept what you says to me and just being calm when you says that . I just dont want to make it worse for me . Well , recently baby keep raising his voice towards me and i'm scared . I'm scared that my past will repeat it again .  Again & again . When isit going to end ? Like people's always says "what goes around comes aournd" . So obviously i dont want karma to come back . It hurts me alot :'( . It hurts my deepest feelings . Haish . When everything's going to end ? Like seriously . I felt sad when baby cant meet me today but yet i just keep silence , cause i dont want this small thing it will be big . I dont want him to quit soccer just for me cause i know he loves soccer so much . So i shall just be patience to face all this . Haish . aww ~ what a sad post .  Back to the topic . Will be going out later with sister to Imm as she wants to window shop and at the same time she wants to find toiletries . So i just folllow her "rentak" laa kan . Well baby have promise to me that he will be meeting me tomorrow . yeaaaaah ! gonna give him  thight hug , cause yesterday i didntget to spend time with him as he  was not in a mood when having soccer match . So i just gave him a kiss at his chubby cheeck:D . Baby has promise that he will accompany me to jurong point as i want to find new school shoes . I really hope he wont paitaw :'( . please keep you promise . And yeaah i'm sorry :( .