Hello readers .

currently my mood is swing and i'm effing not in mood :'( . I have been crying for the past the past two days . Since yesterday i didnt grab any food to eat . My stomach is empty since yesterday . Haish . I have not been in this suitation for so long and now it happening again . Gosh , i feel sorry for myself cause  i have let you go and now i regret . I have not been attending school for two days . I gave mama/sister many lame reasons why i didnt  come  to school . But i gg to tell  my sister that i'm not strong enough , i want to share everything with her . She is the only hope i left :'( . Haish . I love you & i still do , i just dont know why i need a break . Cause maybe i'm just to tired of having the same problems over & over again . Fights all the way and i hate it so much . This is all because about my egoness . I just cant put aside  those ego but i did try my best to put it aside but i have failed . You have been telling people the bad thing about but me & i feel sorry for that while for me i have been  w/o failed telling my family all the good things about you . Tho sometimes you do make me hurt but i didnt told them . Haish . As i say blame me for everythin right ? So blame me kay readers . I'm the one who let go of him cause of some reasons . Haish , but i do need him now , like seriously . You may think that i'm desperate wants him back, yes i'm desperate to be with him back . you may say what you want but i just dont care . But seriously , i still cant get over him . I try my best to move on but i just cant . Cause my love for him is so big . I have not been eating since yesterday , what i have been doing  is crying till my both eyes are hurts badly . I have been hugging elmo since just now cause imissyou badly . Only gods know how much i miss you and also only gods know ow isit feel to act something stupid like that . Baby you only see the bad sides of me but the good sides of me , you earased it off just like that .But why ? After all the good deed that i did to you for the past four months you earased all those good things that i did to you ? :'(  haish , i just need you back . if i were to have you back , i promised to treasure you properly . Till now i have been crying :'( . Haish baby , why you making  me like this ? I gave you alot of chances but you ? Haish . I'm not strong enough . you say you cant take it with my ego and i accept it . i thought you are the best who can handle me in every ways . But i'm wrong . Haish :'( . i wonder where's those promised that we have made before & I wonder where it has gone too ? i thought you have said before that you  are not gg to leave me tho i asked you for breaks .