Want to know something ? I feel like sitting alone like that at the garden near by my house cause i'm not in a good  mood right now  staying at  home , like seriously . Sometimes i felt that i cant make you happy as you always wanted  cause i'm just a bad gf to you . But i'm trying my best but i still failed :'( . Blame me for everything cause  i'm the one who is always at fault , now i do realise that i do make mistakes to you . It seems unfair seeing you cry for me each & everyday infront of me . I wipe your tears when you cried infront of me , hug me thightly & dont let go of my hands saying to me this " B , i still need you by my side , i cant move on without you . Please give me one last chance . I need that chance to change  everything about us  " . Aww ~ so sweet if you baby <3 . And yeaah now i have learned how to forgive and forget for the sake of our r/s . I just need to learn my lesson sometimes . Not to be EGO ! ohmgee ~ But you see , ego comes and go . It comes naturally without realising it sometimes . So its hard to put that EGO a side tho we tried our best , right ? Who agress with me ? But like seriously , baby usually give in more whenever i asked for break , But me ? I just dont , People sometimes may think that Baby <3 is in a fault but usually it was me who caused everything . So before pointing any dirty fingers , get the fact right . BLAME ME FOR EVERYTHING . I'm just useless :'( . This post make me hurts cause i have been blaming myself for all this . Baby i'm sorry for what i have done to you , I mean mintak maaf , tho both words have the same meaning i prefered to said ' Mintak Maaf" . i don't know why . Haish . How i wished you were reading all this , that i really mintak maaf for what i have done to you for the past 4 months . Tho both us did mistakes but i'm the one who makes those troubles , right ? So let me tell you this , tho i was hurt with your act  sometimes but eventually you are a good bf . No lies , you the best . Among all you treat me differently . You wipe my tears when i cried , Hug me thightly when i feeling down . All this reminds me when the first time we started to be together . You such a good friend , friend to boyfriend . Ohm gee~ i cant belive it . Haha .  But everything when smoothly after just now talked (: & i'm glad .