Hello readers , miss me ? Obviously you are ! Haha , well i have not been updating this blog for quite sometimes . Many challanges that im facing right now and im totally not strong to face it . Haish , why isit must be this way ?After one & another make me like this . Haish , maybe partly is my fault because of not taking good care of them . Im sorry love . I didnt tend to hurt your feelings . See you want karma right ? Karma has come and i accept it . I know thats not karma , you have planned to give me those revenged . Well nevermind . Maybe for now you think im stupid for you to play &  fool around with . But no more . I seriously had enough . Karma isnt my game anymore,Im tired of it already . I have given up :') . I just need to take the right path now , oh god i hope im making the right desicion . God please be with me and help me choose the correct path . And yes , after long time searching who is Ys ? Finally you know right ? And yes sharifah , stop jumping to conclusion sayings that is another guy . "Ys" actually means yatiesyirhan<3 , Okaay ? Im really sad cause you have been jumping to conclusion . But nevermind . I blame myslef alright . My fault . And ohh even if you know im contacting syazwan , why you must bother ? There's no need for you to ask him or anything right ? I didnt stopped you both playing games with me , i didnt stopped him to contact with "___________" . But why must he blamed me saying i got another guy . While he is the one :'( . Haish , nevermind . Readers just blamed me alright . Now i know your true colours from somebody and it is upsetting . I just realised that you are such a great gamer that i didnt realised that i was being fool by you drastically . Amazing :) . Since you want to know the truth here is the truth alright . Let me tell you people everything . First i know i treat him like piece of shit , i know that i always asked him for break ups , scolded him and stuffs , i told him that my feelings has fade but one thing , have ever i treat him differently like he treat me ? Seriously ? If he says a yes then actually idk want to say . Each and everytime whenever i have money without failed i will be treating hakim & him eat . Without failed . When his parents confiscated his phone while i took those troubles/courages to buy him prepaid card & sim card . But have ever he appreciates what i have done for him ? You people tell me ?! I have been keeping everything inside now im going to let everything out ! I just cat take it anymore :'(:'( . I know whenever i asked him for breaks he surely fight for it , but when times he asked me for breaks i did fight for him but sometimes he "matikan my point " so i just cant say anything then let him off . But when we are back , i didnt treat him differently but instead his the one . When i found out you & sharifah lied to me about *_________* , i felt hurt & cried silently inside my heart . Have ever you think of my feelings when you did that ? Have you ?! You told sharifah that you have give up on me & wanted to move on when that upon of  time you were with me . How awesome ?:'( . You asked me for patch , i kept quiet . But when you tears wanted to rolls i accept your patch cause i thought that you really have changed  & regret what you have done to me and you wont hurts my feelings . But what ? you did . You blamed me for eveything . When 9 august , i tried to contact you like stupid girl , instead you didnt pick up / reply my msg :'( . Why ?! Instead what you says to someone that you are very lazy to answer my calls & msg . How awesome ?:'( you just cant hide things anymore from me cause i know what is going already . You asked me for break at that upon of time , i felt hurt cause i thought those breaks is not for real . But indeed you says a yes . Haish , i cried like mad girl thinking of you . I miss you at that moment . Your reasons of breaking up with me because you says there's no point of continuing if we ares till fighting . But what ? after those msg i did asked you nicely "wru?" but you dont bother to reply and you thought im angry with you ? but actually im not . But its alright , i just accept it :'( . I did everything for you but have ever you sees ? about that garfield thing , i still remember that you says to me " ehh b , garfield !" When that upon of time , i dont have money i still bought for you eventhough i , myslef dont have money to buy my recess meals all just because of you baby . Haish , but you must be thinking while i still did this all to you since you didnt asked for it , just because i love you sweet boyfriend . All this blind love has made myself cant think which is right/worng . Haish :'( . Seriously i dont know whats your motive of doing that , but nevermind . I just accept it . I have not been eating for the past one/two months just to save money for you birthday gifts . You told me before that you  wanted a puma watch & a soccer boot . You only can afford to buy those gifts only after hari raya . So i thought of buying you one of those gifts which is actually a soccer boot . But when you says to someone that eventually hurts my feelings . Seriously it makes me feel down , i dont know whats your motive . But its alright , i still accept it . What it is my mind always says this " are you running for my....." Haish :'( , idk . I do all this just for you baby , instead you have move on thats fast .  Eventhough i put my status at facebook status that i have move on , but did i rally move on ? and your stalker keep saying it was another guy but actually it was you !You & shaifah seriouslyhave a great planned to make you and *_______* together .  Whatever it is , i just wished you the best alright ex ,if thats is what you want , i cant do anything . I know your feelings has totally fade when you the last time i broke up with you . I know you just dont want to hurt my feelings cause you says that you had enough of my attitude . Eventhough those lies makes me feel down , but whatever it is , im glad to be with you for the past 5 months and it was the most amazing journey when im with you :') . Much appreciates love  . I know you are trying your best to make me feel happy when your feelings has fade and you dont bother to tell me cause you scared that i will feel hurt . I will feel more hurt now after im know the truth now . Sumpah it hurts . But why i still dont move on cause you says that "i thought you will wait for me when i are ready " , you gave me hopes while you like/love her . Amazing . I just dont know what you mean kay , but seriously you all are such a gamer till i  didnt realised that i was being fool by you . Eventhough my journey with you was just a short one but i still treasured those 5 months beautifully . I will move on when times comes ,not now. Cause i really not ready . I will wait for you for now .  Mdm kahtijah scolded for making the wrong choice , here & there people has been scolding me for being with you . But what for once i didnt regret being with you cause i know you are someone speacial in my life . Starting from today , i will just followed the flows . I will not disturb you anymore . I will not called nor text your anymore liked how i use too . I must just believed in myself . Last time i can forget faiz , but why i cant forget him ? I just need time . Right readers ? and one more thing i did says to sharifah that i want to maen gile , but did i do it till now ? I dont ! But it was my fault cause him.  Haish nevermind . I guess this is a really long post that i have jot down , now i shall pen down and get bathing to go to wet market . Much love yatie<3 Want to know more asked me at formspring.me/yatiebaby  . And i just wished you the best alright ex . Be happy with her :D .