After such a long time missing in action, I soon get to know from someone about the news. I was shocked and felt pity for her but nothing much I can do instead of giving her advice and be there for her when she needs me. I was such a big looser who can’t be there for her when she was down to tear. I just feel so bad for myself. When she was sharing with me about her stories, deep in thought I was thinking of something. I must feel grateful & thankful as the problems that I having right now was just a minor one instead the rest of the people out there still have a lot of problems that bigger than mine. Am appreciate that the test that god has given to me was not that though as I still managed to put on a smile. I just can’t believed that even the problems that she was having right now, she stills remembers me and cares for me and wants to know what is happening to me. What such a great sister I had. I love her the same way as I love my own biological sister. Soon I must vanish the thought that am having right now, as I don’t want to drag thing any further. I just need to let it remains as it ways. I just must reduce the expectation needed so I won’t be so disappointed in any ways. Thru my thick & thin I must feel grateful for myself as god still loves me and let me be with the ones I love so much especially my family. I shouldn’t make my family as my second, third or even worse my fourth instead putting them as my First in the heart.

Let’s put this aside, by putting them as my first I must be grateful as I still have them in my life and appreciate them as I can. But once they are gone leaving us at least we have enough time spending with them and be with them. With all her words, she makes me realizes how important was family towards us. Thank you as you has opened my eyes, that no one ever can replace them from me. Even how bad they are, we must always bare in mind that they are our parents who have raised us till now. We must not forget the good deeds that they have made towards us since we were young and how a mother has been carrying us inside her stomach for nine months. I just can say that what the wrong doings that I have done towards my family behind their back was a terrible one. Instead I must feel ashamed of myself as they have such daughter like me.

Assalamualaikum,