As you can see readers, I blog only once in a while when am free. And yes, I’m totally free right now as I have already quit my job for certain reasons. It really upset me when I quitted my job as I have already adapted to that job and the environments there. It was an amazing experience working there as I really get to learn new stuffs and the care & love we bond to each other. Oh well, as far I’m working there I didn’t get to snap any photo, so it means that I didn’t get to keep any memories with me accept those fun & laughter’s I had over there. The only person I miss there was kak siti, my "kambing". Haha. Boss used to call her kambing as always as she always awake till night. Not only that I miss sharing stories with her and also I miss getting scolding from uncle. But whatever it is, I have to let go everything that I had over there. But seriously, working there is something enjoyful & meaningful thing as I really get to know what life means and eventually finding money is not easy as you people think. And that’s why our parents work day & night just to give us food to eat and better education. But we, as their children didn’t appreciate their hard work that they have been doing for us. Instead, we asked for more even we have already get what we want.



Now, I began to appreciate what my parents have given me. After for such a long time without realizing that my parents are way much important than anything in this world and I also began to realize that no one ever can replace them from me. All thanks to Pier (boss), as he has been giving me meaningful advice that so touch and have a thought on it. And yes I began to realize that sometimes I have been putting my family as my second priority in life instead my friends & my ex boyfriend as my first. Here, I’m not saying that friends neither having boyfriend is important just that I just realized that for all this while I having problem where is my friend and my ex boyfriend has gone too? Where is them when I need their back? Where is them when I need to share every problems that am facing? All I have right now is my sister who has been with me with my thick & thin. She is the best sister that I ever had. What my sister always advice is to think the positive ways and not to care what other thinks about us & judge us. As we live our own life. The most important thing even we have lost the person we love so much but still we still have our family who has our back even its hurting.



“Even you have lost one, that does not meant you have lost everything. There is still your family supporting you in every ways. Just believe in god & faith.”




She's the girl who used to believe that love is something wonderful. But now, after she realizes something, love is just nothing to her. Instead, for now at her age she’s a girl who needs a love from her parents the most. Now, she has the mindset that falling in love in the past was a mistake to her and just a temporary thing in life. But she just can’t denied that whatever happens for her past is something that she can’t forget and how a guy came to her life and changed her ways and thought that have on her for such a long time and believe that all guys are the same. Yes, he is someone special to me but no longer. She also can’t deny that she missed being in love ONCE again & cared that she had before.



In fact, she has already neglect most of her love ones just because she wants to change her ways to a better one. Insha’Allah. She’s has already neglect someone in her life as was because she does not want to give that person a false hope. She hates being in this situation as it not nice to be her. She’s stupid. As to her she does not deserved the attention given from such person as she scared she might someone feelings after knowing who she was before. And yes she really hopes that by doing this she will wants the best for the person. She does not want history repeat by itself. She also does not want to cry all day like how she use too. She just wants to be happy like others. All she wants now, a true friend who will always stand by her side and never go and love from her family. Even a while, she just needs a true love. In fact, am just lonely.




assalamualaikum,