I have not been blogging for quite sometimes  i guess? Now i shall blog everything that has on my mind. Currently, am missing my faezboncet veryvery much as we did not meet up with each other for quite sometimes.  Well, for now i have been busy with my life especially with my daily routine, house cleaning. Apart from that, i have been away from home for almost two weeks as i need to help my aunt for my cousins wedding. Many things need to be done and mostly my auntie count on me to do those jobs. Gosh:/. I have not been getting enough rest for myself till i fall sick. I have been coughing badly this few days but there's no sign of me recovering even though i did take up my medicine regularly.

 Last saturday, i had my family dinner at eastcoast. I really enjoyed myself with them. After we had our dinner, we make ourself to marina barrage. I have been thinking of flying kite with faezboncet and friends but it seems the plan is not working, all thanks to me because am busy with my stuffs. Today, a lot of people is at my auntie house to do the hamper. I did some of the hamper just now but it didnt turned out great as they wanted, so  they need to re- do it again. But its alright, at least i did make some effort by trying and helping her out to do those hamper. Thank god, they still appreciate what i have been doing for them.

* perangai budak gemok*

I do not want to be a looser again ever since the last mistakes that i've made before. I do not want to loose someone special again just because i keep repeating my old mistakes. But i know, that you aint like others who did not give me any chance to prove to you that am not like before. I'll promise you, that whatever happens for the past i will changed to be a better person. I will never regret for what has happened for the past, as the past teaches me to be strong and not letting others keep stepping on my head. I know that i have responsibility to take care of and thats you, so yeah i wont let the past haunt us again. I know that you are scared that i will leave you again like how i did to you before. Trust me, i'm also scared that i'll be doing the same old mistakes again as i'm a human being too who will obviously keep continuing making mistakes w/o failed. I hope allah heard my prayers. I know that you did not trust me any longer ever since i left you. I felt hurt when every time you keep repeating that someone name in our r/s . But its alright, i know that you are more hurt seeing me before with someone else. I'll really hope that you wont mention anyone's name in our r/s. I really hope that you will bring myself to the old me. I just cant deny that i really miss being my old self. This isnt me , who you new. I feel weird when am started to change to someone else cause i hate being that nur hariyati as people keep playing around with my feelings and take things for granted. But now, i just realised something that being a girl who did not a lot of things is much more better rather knowing everything in this world. As was because what you will be getting is pain in returned. Even being that nur hariyati, i realised that i have great companies around me. I miss being the old me. I do not want to loose you again as now i've began to appreciate you more and loving you more. I'll really  hope that you feel the same. In what everything i do now, i will always need you by my side. I love you, honey.

Goodnight readers,